I spent the better part of yesterday thinking more about my decision to give the cleanse a try and I’m filled with multitudes of thoughts really. Mostly, I am really glad I’ve made this decision and I’m very eager to get started (which I know is a very good sign for me). I’d love to get started now, but I don’t want to do it during the Boston road trip. I am really encouraged by all the positive results I’ve been reading all over the internet.
I have also been giving greater thoughts to the meats and produce we eat. I worry the hormones in the feed that they give to the animals aren’t good for us humans at all, nor the pesticides etc. on fruits and veggies. I really hate that organic meats and produce are so much more expensive than their non organic counterparts. I question how ethical that is on all levels – gouge the consumer for wanting something healthier in their life.
That said, I also admit I have been considering the validity of the claims of the cleanse whereby they suggest something like part of the reasons fat cells linger in the body is to help protect the body from toxins. It would certainly give an interesting theory and angle to the current global obesity epidemic beyond just blaming it on an increase in portion size. We have been taking strides towards healthier food preparation methods with the ban of trans fats, but generations past cooked with straight lard (natural product sure, but otherwise so unhealthy). In the past, down home cooking and comfort foods were the norm – people may have been more active in their daily living, but there were no gyms to go to and the global obesity epidemic didn’t exist period. Taking that one step further, we now live in an environment that is significantly more toxic than past generations. It’s a potential obesity link that is very hard to argue.
I am doing this primarily for the health benefits. I’m intrigued by the claims of feeling more energetic, sleeping better (so vital considering my shift work has my patterns all messed up), clearer skin, healthier hair, all that wonderful stuff. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t highly interested in the weight loss benefits too. It’s entirely possible I could lose the 20 pounds I want during this cleanse (which they also claim will stay off because I’m no longer as toxic as when I first began). That for me would be huge! I guess I’ll start to find out the truth about it all in a little over a week.
I am absolutely still quite skeptical, and this may wind up doing very little for me. Or I could be one of the many claiming great results. If it does make me healthier, great. At the very least it’s got me thinking about the toxins in the things we eat…and concerned…
So it’s been a little over 3 months since I last posted – and I will also make note that in my last few posts I thought I had been feeling a little more bloggy. Apparently I was wrong. I think part of it is I have just felt so busy and so uninspired to blog that it’s just gone by way of the wayside. I admire those who can do this daily, or heck, weekly even. I know I used to find blogging a lot more important, but I also felt like I had so much more to say.
I’m realizing I’m spreading myself pretty thin lately and I’ve just been trying to quasi keep caught up with as much as I can in a borderline “jack of all trades, master of none” fashion. And when I come here I sit and stare at a screen, the cursor bar flashes, and the text box remains white. So, what I can say is I’m going to endeavor to try. I’d like to say I’d make this a daily thing, because I think it can become habitual – even if it is dry and flat. One day I could come to appreciate these musings of how I felt at these moments in time. And one day, these musings might mean everything to someone – as morbid and sad as it sounds, losing A really made me realize I wish I had something like this so I could have gotten to “know” her better before it was all too late.
This winter has been so very hard for me. For years I’ve suffered with Seasonal Affective Disorder, and with the snow starting at the end of October, and it snowing almost every day through December, the bitter cold, the teasing mid-February warm and melt, and still now the dusting of snow it’s all just too much. That has been a huge factor for me this year. It was also not helped by the fact that we hadn’t booked a winter vacation this year as we had for the last 2. It’s not something I plan on repeating any time soon and we will be going away during the winter of 2009-2010. Anyways, the point is, I’ve been exceptionally down this year and my head has been boggy with just junk really and nothing good. I’ve been lazier than I’m happy with. My gym mojo has been lacking, mostly because I don’t like going outside in this, and also that I’ve just really enjoyed taking this time to spend with Steve and friends. It’s been nourishing my soul, greatly.
March begins a fresh start and a clean slate for me – spring cleaning of the mind and body and soul if you will. We are going on a weekend getaway to Boston in a week – we both need the getaway badly and it’s somewhere we’ve never been, and I need to stock up on my Patriots paraphenalia. Then when I get home I begin a modified 30 day cleanse (I say modified because it will wind up being 25 days before we go away to somewhere tropical). I’m hoping the cleanse both goes well and that I’m able to stick with it. Thankfully it comes with a money back guarantee if I’m not happy and can’t stick to it. I debated not telling anyone about it, but I figure I’m going to need support at times, and I’m sure it will also draw questions why I’m having shakes and things at meal times because I’m typically a normal food kind of girl. I’ve done a fair amount of reading on it and it seems to be pretty healthy and most people have been reporting feeling awesome after a few days. I guess I’ll see.. 🙂 It’s worth a try and I really have nothing to lose (except for maybe some stubborn fat!)